A life lived in pursuit of connection, from post-war England to the quiet shade of a mango tree in the Philippines.

Born in 1947 beside the River Thames, I grew up in a Britain shaped by ration books, rigid schools, and silence.
Sent away young to boarding school, I learned discipline early, and learned even earlier how to keep feelings to myself.

*Searching for Love* is the story of what followed.

It moves from childhood and schooldays, through marriages and mistakes, hotels and pubs,
sailing and survival, across England, France, America, and finally to the Philippines.
Along the way come moments of humour, desire, restlessness, failure, and reflection.

This is not a book about perfection. It is a book about honesty.

In later life, far from the noise of earlier years, love arrived quietly, through family, fatherhood, and stillness.
What I spent decades searching for was not found in escape or conquest, but in belonging.

This book is the first in a trilogy that continues with "Under the Mango Tree"
a story of family, legacy, and what remains when the searching finally stops.